Emotional Running?

Could I possibly become and emotional runner a much as I have been an 'emotional eater' in the past. Let's hope so.

I just found out today that two of my very closest friends in the whole world are confronted with the same worst case situation that I have confronted before. Two different families that I hold close to my heart are both facing the devastation and pain that is pancreatic cancer.

Almost seven years ago my grandma 'Granny' was diagnosed with late stage pancreatic cancer. And I ate my way through the hardest year of my life. One of my closest friends from high school died in December of 2003 and my grandma who was best role model and friend died in January 2004. I cannot even begin to explain the number of calories I consumed.

But, here I am seven years later still trying to recover from the pounds and poor habits I gained during that time.

So, I am confronted with my memories of my own loss while people I love and care for are confronted with pain that can't be described. My heart is broken for them. If I could take away the pain that they will face in the next 6 months I would do anything.

But I can't.

I am going to do everything I can to nurture and care for them. But, I can't let pancreatic cancer get the best of me again.

My first instinct when I found out was to bake a chocolate cake. But that won't help anyone! --They don't ship halfway across the country to Michigan very well. And it will only add a good 5lbs to my hurdles.

I am turning to emotional running instead of emotional eating.

With every step I take I am representing the healthy lifestyle that Granny always wanted for me. The steps that my friend with one leg couldn't run. The strength of those people who represent the greatest generation, but now confront a personal battle that will take every ounce of their perseverance.

And with each step of each run I am going to continue to support and encourage my family and friends to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Confront the pains and sorrows, celebrate the blessings of each moment shared, and work to living a better life with each step and breath.